i'm 24, was anorexic. now that my body is "recovered", i'm at my minimum normal weight. i gained it all on my bottom half. my top half is still bony.
i heard that it is normal to gain weight on the belly, hips & thighs 1st & then it redistributes. is that true? if that's true, if i lose weight again, will it even out?
i wish i could recover & be normal but i'm way too dysmorphic & insane & i hate doctors with their psychobabble. i'm envious of the women i see with their bones protruding & i frequently google "anorexia" to look at all the pictures..
& i'm totally annoyed at those other eating disorder communities that have long forms to fill out and demand proof of promotion.
i'm not your typical go-getter anorexic with 2 jobs and 2 majors with straight As. i'm an artist/performer with a fascination with sciences like physics & biochemistry. i'm frequently incapacitated because of my asthma. & i love yoga.
i'm thinner than most people i see walking around but i think most people are fat. it seems the number of overweight people has doubled over 1 year.
or maybe it's just me. kind of scary tho. consumer culture frightens me.
stats; 5'2, 100 lbs,. ...my lowest was 90 (some ppl want to know)