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14th-Nov-2005 05:11 pm(no subject)
Look At Me: By Redingo
Wow, its been WAY too long since iv posted, let alone posted to my own site, damn. So anways, Like most of you guys iv been going thru the so called "diet pills" that are supoosed to be good for appetite suppresents. The latest one that im on is called Vive Body, they SUCK ASS so dont waste your $$, i think they are just a bunch of caffeen in a pink pill that tastes like pink bubble gum. Also tried Meta Slim (the regular one, not the carb blocker one), these were better but still not the greatest. Does anyone have some advised here on something that actually works?? I was gonna try Zantrax but it looks like something i would give to a addict!! ( i know i know, dont judge a book by its cover......)

Also got home after a good day and opened the flood gates of food hell and had chips with about a half tub of sour cream mixed with spices, one cookie and 2 choclolate sticks.......im now drinking pepsi......non diet........i suck blah

PS, just checked out some other LJ posts and people are talking about Xenadrine, any good??
13th-Oct-2005 02:48 am(no subject)
Hi, my name is Violet.. I just started a live journal because I feel like I need to talk to someone who understands what I'm going though. I've been reading entries in this community and it seems like all of you could be reading my mind. It's amazing how alone I feel and yet I find SO many girls out there (through the internet) going through the SAME thing having the SAME thoughts. I'm just starting out here, still getting used to things but I'm posting on "realanas" because you are all over 21, and I'm looking for someone closer to my age (24) to talk to about it. It's hard to connect with someone 15...and it's just too sad...anyway, if anyone wants to talk I'm here!
26th-Aug-2005 09:08 am - Struggling
I hate my body. Gaining weight over the last year has meant gaining breast, thighs and a double butt. I hate seeing myself naked so I don't look in the mirror. I am very depressed and having great difficulty sleeping. I have got to get focused and get this crap off of my body. No...this isn't my body. My body is the one under all this fat screaming to get out. To be freed!! Yes, that is the imagine I am going to keep with me today so that I will stay focused. Under 500. Under 500. Under 500.
25th-Aug-2005 04:42 pm(no subject)
Well, my daughter's Birthday was yesterday. It was a busy day. HAvn't lost a pound in days. I don't have any classes tomorow so as of tonight I am fasting. Maybe some chicken or beef broth but no other cal liquids. Not even my master cleanser drink lol. Thankfully I haven't gained this week while sitting on my ass studying, but I haven't lost anything either and I am still a cow. I am waiting for all this fluid to go away. It is still hanging on my body like a bad song. Always do that right before, and I am running behind from stress probably but it needs to hurry up cause this water weight pisses me off. My scale is a piece of shit. It varies between two pounds. It was a twelve dollar Taylor, but damn it I just bought it. How about a cattle scale. Anyone got an accurate scale they like well? Please share the info, I hate mine
24th-Aug-2005 08:22 am - hello
Good morning. Today is a day that I am going to lose a pound. I have to. I have been busy with school work so I haven't had as much time to reflect on my fat ass lately as I did before. I hate that. I like the time I spend looking at myself in the mirror loathing myself. Warped, yes, effective and honest, yes. Miss that time to myself. Hopefully next week will be better. Today I am only eating one meal. Under 300 cals. Whenever in the afternoon that might be. Hugs to all my friends. Miss you.
23rd-Aug-2005 12:09 pm - *cross posted*
i feel depressed today...i feel fat. Read more...Collapse ). if anyone is around please comment-im having a down day and i could use some support. thanks
23rd-Aug-2005 12:08 pm - *cross posted*
i feel depressed today...i feel fat. Read more...Collapse ). if anyone is around please comment-im having a down day and i could use some support. thanks
22nd-Aug-2005 10:33 am(no subject)
yea down two pounds still a fat cow though to me, now if only AF will go away. lol. I am off to classes today. Hope everyone is ok and feeling good about themselves. Hugs to everyone.

20th-Aug-2005 08:57 am - FAT ASS kinda day
So finally I am back on my fast. YEah. I wanted to die when I got on the scale last night. I hadn't gained, but I hadn't lost either, and that bugs me to death. On top of that, Aunt Flo (my period) is on her way, and I always feel like a fat cow when she is coming and usually propels me into a week long of fasting. It is actually to my benefit I guess to feel like a fat cow, then I work that much harder and see the scale going down faster. MOOO. 1 Master Cleanser Drink Down, Two to go. mmmm mmmm mmmm 250 calories and no fatigue. It is good for my fat ass. I wonder sometimes if I will quit feeling like a fat ass when I am back to where I used to be at 120 and a size 4. I still felt like a fat ass then too, but I got pregnant, and I ate for them. Gonna go excercise and all that fun stuff. Catch you all later.

19th-Aug-2005 04:21 pm(no subject)
Ok, my hubby screwed up my fast last night and this morning. I am sure he doesn't suspect anything, but he came home early and made me eat supper with him, and again this morning before he left. What a bummer. Guess I will try again tommorow, not losing any fat this way. Been sleeping all day too, don't know why I am so friggin tired. Does anyone know why Chloe left? Well, I hope you are all feeling good about yourselves today, becuasue I feel like crap. Like a fat cow specifically. I always feel that way when I have to eat rather than nibble on something. Really pisses me off. I always am twice as hard on myself after it happens too, so I will torture myself tommorow. How are you doing mysacredstuff? Haven't heard from you in a while. Hope you are ok. Well I am off to clean and fix supper for the kids. I think I will get up at 0500 tommorow just to start torturing myself early.

HUGGGGGS to all.
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